So I didn't die on my dreaded 14 1/2 hour flight
I'm in Seoul Korea at my teaching orientation meeting some cool Americans, South Africans, New Zealand(ers), and just multiple nice Korean people.
Its a shame I won't be here the whole time, there are more English speaking people then I imagined, still a pain in the ass to get around, but its fun.
Every Where you go every car has GPS/DVD/Navi and the speed limit is like 100mph out here. It blinks when your going to slow for traffic....Simply amazing.
Right now im in a Dorm room so its really close nip in here and the wireless internet sort of sucks So my laptop is dieing as I type because i don't quite trust the converters yet. (although there is an American plug in my room.....Weird)
Well I'm going to sign off for now but I may keep editing this post,
My 30 days of Truth is coming soon as well so be on the look out
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
NEW PAGE LAYOUT!~ Oct 1st Update!
Welcome to the new Digs!
I know im super late on re-designing the blog, but hey better late than never.
Quick Update. I could possibly be leaving for Korea in 3 weeks!
(if you haven't known I got a job offer to teach in Korea, I would link the blog but can't (well don't feel like) find it.
Maybe there is a reason why all the female situations in the past 4 months haven't worked out...
My birthday is Oct 26, If i leave though I'll be gone the 22nd.
just wanted to promote the new blog Lay out so I wont get into to much
The 30 Days of Truth are on there way. I'm halfway through it on my journal
There is an about me now "What's it all about" (which could randomly change)
The Classics, Old blogs that I feel should still be viewed and commented on!
There may be more but who knows im usually lazy with that stuff and what I already did was alot of work.
Welcome new followers, please dont mind the random babble.
I know im super late on re-designing the blog, but hey better late than never.
Quick Update. I could possibly be leaving for Korea in 3 weeks!
(if you haven't known I got a job offer to teach in Korea, I would link the blog but can't (well don't feel like) find it.
Maybe there is a reason why all the female situations in the past 4 months haven't worked out...
My birthday is Oct 26, If i leave though I'll be gone the 22nd.
just wanted to promote the new blog Lay out so I wont get into to much
The 30 Days of Truth are on there way. I'm halfway through it on my journal
There is an about me now "What's it all about" (which could randomly change)
The Classics, Old blogs that I feel should still be viewed and commented on!
There may be more but who knows im usually lazy with that stuff and what I already did was alot of work.
Welcome new followers, please dont mind the random babble.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Teen Mom on MTV good or bad?
Ok so I'm 24 (25 in one more month) and I've been watching MTV since my family got cable t.v. back in 1991.
To get to the point I tend to gravitate towards MTV (if not ESPN) when I'm bored or its late night.
There is a show called Teen MOM that started from 16 and Pregnant.
I don't know how to feel about this show.
The Good.
It shows the true hardships that Teenage Moms go through.
There is not one really happy Mom on that show so I guess that serves as a warning for majority of teenage moms.
The ladies Love their babies and seem to want to do anything to make them happy, while barely scratching and surviving themselves.
I think only one of them Graduated highschool (not positive though).
I do see things like Help hotlines being promoted.
The Bad.
Could this be promoting, hey if you have a baby at a young age, you too can be on MTV?
Along with the bad, they show a lot of the good. Some of those things, ease the minds of teenage girls having babies.
I don't think I have seen One Safe Sex ad (condoms, birth control) being promoted on that show.
I know that this is reality TV and its entertaining for some people, but I can't really determine if this is a good message to send out to the youth of this generation.
I mean I'm sure shows like Jersey shore and house wives aren't exactly education tv, but should there really be a show about teenage moms?
I feel for some of them, but one of them really irritates me and that is Farrah.
No other Mom on that shows complains more about struggling and finding a guy more than she does. (When I feel she is the most attractive)
On top of that she claims to be so broke, when yet she had to get a new car, and gets a 2009 Dodge Caliber.
She has the nicest apartment of all of them.
We know MTV pays them, so on top of them "working" they also get paid from MTV (I don't know exactly how much but I do know Real world cast makes about 30-50k for the 6 weeks their on the show).
I know for a fact their are girls in worst situations.
I guess my gripe is Why have a show like this, and not constantly plug Safe Sex advertisement.
I mean we know their not going to preach abstinence so why not preach the opposite?
To get to the point I tend to gravitate towards MTV (if not ESPN) when I'm bored or its late night.
There is a show called Teen MOM that started from 16 and Pregnant.
I don't know how to feel about this show.
The Good.
It shows the true hardships that Teenage Moms go through.
There is not one really happy Mom on that show so I guess that serves as a warning for majority of teenage moms.
The ladies Love their babies and seem to want to do anything to make them happy, while barely scratching and surviving themselves.
I think only one of them Graduated highschool (not positive though).
I do see things like Help hotlines being promoted.
The Bad.
Could this be promoting, hey if you have a baby at a young age, you too can be on MTV?
Along with the bad, they show a lot of the good. Some of those things, ease the minds of teenage girls having babies.
I don't think I have seen One Safe Sex ad (condoms, birth control) being promoted on that show.
I know that this is reality TV and its entertaining for some people, but I can't really determine if this is a good message to send out to the youth of this generation.
I mean I'm sure shows like Jersey shore and house wives aren't exactly education tv, but should there really be a show about teenage moms?
I feel for some of them, but one of them really irritates me and that is Farrah.
No other Mom on that shows complains more about struggling and finding a guy more than she does. (When I feel she is the most attractive)
On top of that she claims to be so broke, when yet she had to get a new car, and gets a 2009 Dodge Caliber.
She has the nicest apartment of all of them.
We know MTV pays them, so on top of them "working" they also get paid from MTV (I don't know exactly how much but I do know Real world cast makes about 30-50k for the 6 weeks their on the show).
I know for a fact their are girls in worst situations.
I guess my gripe is Why have a show like this, and not constantly plug Safe Sex advertisement.
I mean we know their not going to preach abstinence so why not preach the opposite?
Monday, September 13, 2010
September Update 9/13
I don't know how I only manage to keep up with this blog once a month... Especially when I look at the blogs im following atleast once a week.
Since the last post... That situation didn't work out, but then another one arose, in which you guessed it hasn't been working out for the best either.
There are a lot of factors in to the new one that just isn't really favorable to either of us at this moment.
When there is a movie about my life, I would like it to be titled "Right Situation; Wrong time: The Life Story of Anthony Hawkins!" the other title would be "Half Naked, All man: The life Story of Anthony Hawkins!"
But I digress, its frustrating to say the least being put in good situations, but it not working out. That's when you always have to question Whats in Store for me, what can I help change?
Well moving on As I was reading Tiffani's Blog http://acceptedgirl.blogspot.com/
There was an interesting post about 30 Days of Truth. Which seems something that is just interesting but also something that I probably need to do.
It basically seems to have you review your life. and put out on paper/blog and helps you in so many terms.. Speak out loud.
So What I'm going to do is start on it this month. Then the whole month of October Work on them, and hopefully get them on this blog site. I may start a new one. (Time for some change so why not?)
Here are the 30 days of Truth questions.
Thirty Days of Truth
(1) Something you hate about yourself. (2) Something you love about yourself. (3) Something you have to forgive yourself for. (4) Something you have to forgive someone for. (5) Something you hope to do in your life. (6) Something you hope you never have to do. (7) Someone who has made your life worth living for. (8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. (9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. (10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. (11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on. (12) Something you never get compliments on. (13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) (14) A hero that has let you down. (letter) (15)Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. (16) Someone or something you definitely could live without. (17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. (18) Your views on gay marriage. (19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? (20)views on drugs and alcohol. (21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? (22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. (23) Something you wish you had done in your life. (24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) (25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today. (26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? (27) What’s the best thing going for you right now? (28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? (29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. (30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself .
Thats the update for this month, I will try to get back to this as things progress!
October will Start my 30 days of truth. They won't be long (I think)
Enjoy
Since the last post... That situation didn't work out, but then another one arose, in which you guessed it hasn't been working out for the best either.
There are a lot of factors in to the new one that just isn't really favorable to either of us at this moment.
When there is a movie about my life, I would like it to be titled "Right Situation; Wrong time: The Life Story of Anthony Hawkins!" the other title would be "Half Naked, All man: The life Story of Anthony Hawkins!"
But I digress, its frustrating to say the least being put in good situations, but it not working out. That's when you always have to question Whats in Store for me, what can I help change?
Well moving on As I was reading Tiffani's Blog http://acceptedgirl.blogspot.com/
There was an interesting post about 30 Days of Truth. Which seems something that is just interesting but also something that I probably need to do.
It basically seems to have you review your life. and put out on paper/blog and helps you in so many terms.. Speak out loud.
So What I'm going to do is start on it this month. Then the whole month of October Work on them, and hopefully get them on this blog site. I may start a new one. (Time for some change so why not?)
Here are the 30 days of Truth questions.
Thirty Days of Truth
(1) Something you hate about yourself. (2) Something you love about yourself. (3) Something you have to forgive yourself for. (4) Something you have to forgive someone for. (5) Something you hope to do in your life. (6) Something you hope you never have to do. (7) Someone who has made your life worth living for. (8) Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit. (9) Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted. (10) Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. (11) Something people seem to compliment you the most on. (12) Something you never get compliments on. (13) A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.) (14) A hero that has let you down. (letter) (15)Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it. (16) Someone or something you definitely could live without. (17) A book you’ve read that changed your views on something. (18) Your views on gay marriage. (19) What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics? (20)views on drugs and alcohol. (21) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do? (22) Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life. (23) Something you wish you had done in your life. (24) Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter) (25) The reason you believe you’re still alive today. (26) Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why? (27) What’s the best thing going for you right now? (28) What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do? (29) Something you hope to change about yourself. And why. (30) A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself .
Thats the update for this month, I will try to get back to this as things progress!
October will Start my 30 days of truth. They won't be long (I think)
Enjoy
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Its always Right Situation Wrong time for me FML x4
I'm writing this off feeling and stuff that always happens to me, this may be a little strong at times but bare with me.
Story of my life is that I meet or reconnect with a potential girlfriend, but it never seems to be the right time...
Lack of money, Still don't have my own place, still have dreams of going overseas...and I know alot of you may think. "Well why does it matter if you like someone so much go for it"
Its not that easy for me.
I have mentioned in past post, that I'm very old fashioned, so I want to be the Man of relationship, be able to provide, and spoil.
I'm 24 and will be 25 in October, any relationship I get in from this point on has to have the potential of me getting married to that person. With that said I feel personally I need to be ready for that possibility and with the current situation im in now, I'm not plain and simple.
Also with me planning on going overseas (which this will be the last year I attempt before I let that dream go Aug 2011) I'm sort of feeling, why get into a relationship, and get really deep into it, and then bam just leave. Even though that seems inconsiderate, Going overseas has been a life long dream for me, so its kind of Live for Love or Live for my Dreams.
Thats a tough choice considering my biggest fear in life is being alone.
Now on to the reason this is being written.
There has been a girl I have ALWAYS just had that connection with. I have never had the pleasure of being able to be with. There is a huge history lesson between us but I'll condense to a small summary.
I have known this girl since I was 12, and even then as kids there was a sort of connection. As we grew so did our relationship and feelings, but as teens we couldn't really be together because of certain factors *not to be disclosed*
As we grew up, we always checked up on each other through the years, but either I was in a relationship or she was in one, but we remained friends (we still are).
There was one sliver of hope when I turned 21 when I finally became single, and I believe she was, but we didn't act on it.
That brings us to the present, Both of us are 24, Single, but just not in good situations.
With the type of schedule I have (or will have) I'll be working 7-3, Gym 4-6 then dinner and finishing up work (possibly classes) So the only time I will have is weekends.
I did the Long distance, weekends relationship once, and it wasn't my favorite thing to do in all honesty, and once again im older and have alot more stressors, so I would very much so want more and to see more of this person.
I would go into the characteristics of how I think our relationship would be, but lets just go with it would be a very fun and fulfilling relationship.
I think all in all I'm afraid, I already care about this person alot (I think we both have those feelings) but I know I will drop everything for her, and thats something I can't afford to do right now, not with the plans that I want to happen for myself.
Now Please don't get that confused with me saying I think she will hold me back, no that's not the case at all, and she is actually all for me going and one of my biggest supporters. I'm just referring to wanting to settling down with her (possibly) instead of going overseas which is right now #1 Priority.
It just extremely sucks when this is finally a Right situation but the Wrong time in life.
As the saying goes, "If its meant to be it will be"
The least I can Hope for is a chance with her when everything is right our lives to see where it could really land us.
Now I'm not a complete sap I am also making room for any other possibilities that may come my way. I'm not holding out for one person, maybe there are people better out there for both of us, but the best thing right now is that were still and always will be great friends, and I feel that's the most important thing.
BUT...
I don't know should I really pass up happiness. thats what the debate really is. sigh...
Thanks for listening to the rant. I may edit this for other developments as they happen with this situation.
Story of my life is that I meet or reconnect with a potential girlfriend, but it never seems to be the right time...
Lack of money, Still don't have my own place, still have dreams of going overseas...and I know alot of you may think. "Well why does it matter if you like someone so much go for it"
Its not that easy for me.
I have mentioned in past post, that I'm very old fashioned, so I want to be the Man of relationship, be able to provide, and spoil.
I'm 24 and will be 25 in October, any relationship I get in from this point on has to have the potential of me getting married to that person. With that said I feel personally I need to be ready for that possibility and with the current situation im in now, I'm not plain and simple.
Also with me planning on going overseas (which this will be the last year I attempt before I let that dream go Aug 2011) I'm sort of feeling, why get into a relationship, and get really deep into it, and then bam just leave. Even though that seems inconsiderate, Going overseas has been a life long dream for me, so its kind of Live for Love or Live for my Dreams.
Thats a tough choice considering my biggest fear in life is being alone.
Now on to the reason this is being written.
There has been a girl I have ALWAYS just had that connection with. I have never had the pleasure of being able to be with. There is a huge history lesson between us but I'll condense to a small summary.
I have known this girl since I was 12, and even then as kids there was a sort of connection. As we grew so did our relationship and feelings, but as teens we couldn't really be together because of certain factors *not to be disclosed*
As we grew up, we always checked up on each other through the years, but either I was in a relationship or she was in one, but we remained friends (we still are).
There was one sliver of hope when I turned 21 when I finally became single, and I believe she was, but we didn't act on it.
That brings us to the present, Both of us are 24, Single, but just not in good situations.
With the type of schedule I have (or will have) I'll be working 7-3, Gym 4-6 then dinner and finishing up work (possibly classes) So the only time I will have is weekends.
I did the Long distance, weekends relationship once, and it wasn't my favorite thing to do in all honesty, and once again im older and have alot more stressors, so I would very much so want more and to see more of this person.
I would go into the characteristics of how I think our relationship would be, but lets just go with it would be a very fun and fulfilling relationship.
I think all in all I'm afraid, I already care about this person alot (I think we both have those feelings) but I know I will drop everything for her, and thats something I can't afford to do right now, not with the plans that I want to happen for myself.
Now Please don't get that confused with me saying I think she will hold me back, no that's not the case at all, and she is actually all for me going and one of my biggest supporters. I'm just referring to wanting to settling down with her (possibly) instead of going overseas which is right now #1 Priority.
It just extremely sucks when this is finally a Right situation but the Wrong time in life.
As the saying goes, "If its meant to be it will be"
The least I can Hope for is a chance with her when everything is right our lives to see where it could really land us.
Now I'm not a complete sap I am also making room for any other possibilities that may come my way. I'm not holding out for one person, maybe there are people better out there for both of us, but the best thing right now is that were still and always will be great friends, and I feel that's the most important thing.
BUT...
I don't know should I really pass up happiness. thats what the debate really is. sigh...
Thanks for listening to the rant. I may edit this for other developments as they happen with this situation.
Monday, August 16, 2010
3 months with no update??? Let me change that!
I can't say this has been the best 3 months for me...
Lets start with going overseas to teach.
Well I got into EPIK, which is teaching in Korea, problem is I got in all my visa requirements to late (story of my life). So I am no longer going during the original August date I was suppose to leave (technically today)
Now I am pushing for a March Date (unless I get this job) which to where I will have to push for next august. Either way I feel disappointed that I'm not overseas fulfilling my dreams.
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be for the moment.
Well with that it makes it more difficult on me job wise because I was substitute teaching and I stopped working in June, so I have been 2 months without a job. School Starts next week but Substituting is not what I want to do, but I have to do something for money. Stripping isn't exactly in my future for right now.
It also doesn't help that I have been frivolously spending money at bars, on food I dont need. I'm usually really tight on money but I have been in a I just want to have fun attitude lately.
This attitude brings me in to the Love life. Which has been (and technically still is) Non existant for the past 2 years.
I do have a lady I am really interested in (I will do a separate blog about this situation) but I because of my job situation and this fun attitude, I don't think I can be in a relationship at the moment. I know for a fact that the superficial stuff doesn't mean anything to her, but it means alot to me.
I may of mentioned this in a blog or two, but I am a very old fashioned guy and I have to be the provider a.k.a The Man! of a relationship.
and it Honestly just hurts.
There are other girls who I would like to get to know better, but i feel hindered 1. because of my financial situation. but 2. because I really like the young lady mentioned above.
I feel like a typical guy in the situation to where I want my cake and eat it too.
What makes it worst is that I'm not that type of guy so that sucks.
Once again I'll get more into that in another blog.
Other than that I mean life has been pretty normal for me, I stay in about 6 days a week, go out once a week and just kinda roll with the punches.
I have been a little Stressed with everything, but I just kinda sit back and pray things will work the way their suppose to work, no matter what that should be.
I wish i could think of more to give you guys as an update, but I really don't so for now i'll just relax....
(edit if i need to)
Lets start with going overseas to teach.
Well I got into EPIK, which is teaching in Korea, problem is I got in all my visa requirements to late (story of my life). So I am no longer going during the original August date I was suppose to leave (technically today)
Now I am pushing for a March Date (unless I get this job) which to where I will have to push for next august. Either way I feel disappointed that I'm not overseas fulfilling my dreams.
Maybe it just wasn't meant to be for the moment.
Well with that it makes it more difficult on me job wise because I was substitute teaching and I stopped working in June, so I have been 2 months without a job. School Starts next week but Substituting is not what I want to do, but I have to do something for money. Stripping isn't exactly in my future for right now.
It also doesn't help that I have been frivolously spending money at bars, on food I dont need. I'm usually really tight on money but I have been in a I just want to have fun attitude lately.
This attitude brings me in to the Love life. Which has been (and technically still is) Non existant for the past 2 years.
I do have a lady I am really interested in (I will do a separate blog about this situation) but I because of my job situation and this fun attitude, I don't think I can be in a relationship at the moment. I know for a fact that the superficial stuff doesn't mean anything to her, but it means alot to me.
I may of mentioned this in a blog or two, but I am a very old fashioned guy and I have to be the provider a.k.a The Man! of a relationship.
and it Honestly just hurts.
There are other girls who I would like to get to know better, but i feel hindered 1. because of my financial situation. but 2. because I really like the young lady mentioned above.
I feel like a typical guy in the situation to where I want my cake and eat it too.
What makes it worst is that I'm not that type of guy so that sucks.
Once again I'll get more into that in another blog.
Other than that I mean life has been pretty normal for me, I stay in about 6 days a week, go out once a week and just kinda roll with the punches.
I have been a little Stressed with everything, but I just kinda sit back and pray things will work the way their suppose to work, no matter what that should be.
I wish i could think of more to give you guys as an update, but I really don't so for now i'll just relax....
(edit if i need to)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
BILLS, BILLS, BILLS
The Student loans are catching up to me now.
I'm in a dispute with one from my 1st college to where I don't even remember taking out a loan, I actually didn't take out a loan, and they send me note after note.
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME, I DON'T OWE YOU IF I NEVER TOOK MONEY FROM YOU.
I dont know what to and its frustrating because I feel like im going to owe a lot of money for something I never even took.
I'm in a dispute with one from my 1st college to where I don't even remember taking out a loan, I actually didn't take out a loan, and they send me note after note.
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME, I DON'T OWE YOU IF I NEVER TOOK MONEY FROM YOU.
I dont know what to and its frustrating because I feel like im going to owe a lot of money for something I never even took.
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